Waiting for Admission

Hi everybody !!! Yeah I know, this post comes after a long gap of almost 5 months but the past few months were so cruel (not that I am having a great time now) that I just did not feel like writing or posting the advances in my application process.

Lots of things have been happening in my life lately and most of them leading to severe depression, tension, sorrow, grief (you name it) !!! It could be called Application Fever or after-effects of application (whatever) but one thing I have realized that when I am in trouble, I stand alone. In fact the most important people in my life from whom I expected a little bit of comfort, they are the first ones to turn me down. It hurts so much. One amongst them hardly asks me if I am alive. I wonder how people change within a short span of time.

I applied to 6 places in total and I have got 3 rejections already.I am waiting for 3 more results to come out and have lost most of my hope. I had an inkling or you may say an intuition (women's intuition) that I am going to get admission in US this time, however, these 3 rejections have really frightened me. Though I am still alive with "some" hope of getting admission but this period is very difficult and all I wanted during this period was mental and emotional support of the people whom I consider the closest. But alas !!! I am not even getting sleep and if I sleep by mistake for 1-2 hours, I dream about being rejected or being accepted in a university...it is just too much. I am not able to concentrate on a single thing. This admission is so important for my career and for my future that it can enhance my career and life by leaps and bounds and vice-versa.

Please pray for me that I do get admission somewhere. I need it.