Today it's 29th of March...10:39 a.m. I checked the website of Dalhousie University yesterday night and saw the application status. It said "Decision Made"....but what decision has been made was not written. It said "written notification to follow". I have no idea what does it mean...does it mean that I am accepted or rejected ??? That's why I have written an e-mail to the graduate studies at Dalhousie University so as to know about my application decision.
This wait game is taking its toll on me badly. I cannot concentrate on my studies or anything for that matter. Nothing seems to interest me. Tomorrow I have to go to NAL for the data collection regarding my thesis. I know it is important but somehow I have lost interest in every thing. I don't feel good from inside. The kind of jovial and fun loving person I am, I am not exhibiting any traits of that sort.
The situation way back home is also not that good. My father has been transferred to a different location in Orissa called Bolangir which is one of the most underdeveloped area over there. This transfer means that all the four people in our family will be living at four different locations. Me, here at Bangalore, Mom in Calcutta, Brother in Durgapur as he studies there and Dad in Orissa. I have not let this transfer affect me till now but given the kind of mental stress I am going through, any day I can have a nervous breakdown. It is just too much now.
I need somebody to console me, somebody to tell me constantly "to have faith", somebody whom I trust from within, somebody very close to me, somebody whom I love but alas the only people giving me little bit of faith are my mom, brother, Christina and Sudipta (one of my juniors), who knows what I am going through now. Mom and brother are far away from me and that's why I do not always tell them about the tension I am going through because I don't want them to worry for me. Brother is too young to worry for me and Mom is already in tension due to Dad's transfer. Christina has done her bit and her good wishes are with me. The only person who is constantly in touch with me is Sudipta (as he stays here) and he has been a wonderful friend till date. He has much more faith in God than me and is constantly telling me to keep my hopes alive. He says "I will get through" !!! God only knows what will happen ..
Sometimes I wonder and you know I feel proud about myself. I don't know whether it is right or wrong but that is the way it is. Even during this period of uncertainties and doubts, I am alive and fighting tight. I don't smoke or drink and do not have any bad habits or so like many others. I do not have a way to let out my frustration. The only way I know is to talk to people and listen to music and not studying :D because I cannot concentrate.
Anyway I guess, I will have to wait, wait and wait...bye for now.
This wait game is taking its toll on me badly. I cannot concentrate on my studies or anything for that matter. Nothing seems to interest me. Tomorrow I have to go to NAL for the data collection regarding my thesis. I know it is important but somehow I have lost interest in every thing. I don't feel good from inside. The kind of jovial and fun loving person I am, I am not exhibiting any traits of that sort.
The situation way back home is also not that good. My father has been transferred to a different location in Orissa called Bolangir which is one of the most underdeveloped area over there. This transfer means that all the four people in our family will be living at four different locations. Me, here at Bangalore, Mom in Calcutta, Brother in Durgapur as he studies there and Dad in Orissa. I have not let this transfer affect me till now but given the kind of mental stress I am going through, any day I can have a nervous breakdown. It is just too much now.
I need somebody to console me, somebody to tell me constantly "to have faith", somebody whom I trust from within, somebody very close to me, somebody whom I love but alas the only people giving me little bit of faith are my mom, brother, Christina and Sudipta (one of my juniors), who knows what I am going through now. Mom and brother are far away from me and that's why I do not always tell them about the tension I am going through because I don't want them to worry for me. Brother is too young to worry for me and Mom is already in tension due to Dad's transfer. Christina has done her bit and her good wishes are with me. The only person who is constantly in touch with me is Sudipta (as he stays here) and he has been a wonderful friend till date. He has much more faith in God than me and is constantly telling me to keep my hopes alive. He says "I will get through" !!! God only knows what will happen ..
Sometimes I wonder and you know I feel proud about myself. I don't know whether it is right or wrong but that is the way it is. Even during this period of uncertainties and doubts, I am alive and fighting tight. I don't smoke or drink and do not have any bad habits or so like many others. I do not have a way to let out my frustration. The only way I know is to talk to people and listen to music and not studying :D because I cannot concentrate.
Anyway I guess, I will have to wait, wait and wait...bye for now.
I too am waiting for Dal to respond to my application, so I understand the frustration of waiting. Hope you get in. :)
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ReplyDeleteNow I am in the same situation like Priyanki and Nicolosis at this time. What was happened finally for the case Priyanki and Nicolosis? What can I expect now? I emailed and no response.
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